Dear David Cook

How can I possibly get on my life when you appear in HILARIOUS skits like this? You are such a natural!

Airplane Lands Off Runway in Honduras

I just got a call from my husband and he says that a TACA airplane landed off the runway. He is going there right now to investigate. That's really scary. So far, the only thing I can find online is this:

AP NewsAlert
9 minutes ago
TEGUCIGALPA, Honduras (AP) — Radio reports say a Grupo Taca airplane overruns runway in Honduras, some injured

I'm on Facebook...now I feel all weird...

I'm not sure why I just did what I did, but I added myself on Facebook. I thought it was enough that I had a blog, plus a myspace, but I had some friends that were on Facebook so I figured, what the heck. So I signed up. There was a feature in which it takes my googlemail address book and finds which ones have a facebook. And unbelievably there were 41 people who had facebook profiles just from my address book alone. And it was the people I least expected! Now, here's the weird part. Some are from work - again, people I'd never expect - but do I want the work people to be my friends on facebook or should I keep some of them seperate? It's enough that I see many of them on a daily basis, but to see their profiles too? There are some things I don't want them to know about me too... like my trampoline collection on the third floor.

Two Hour Nap!

This morning, I had every intent on doing about 5 or 6 things in my agenda. I'll get them done as soon the baby is asleep I thought to myself. What do I do as soon as he's asleep? Why, sleep alongside him of course! Forget my things-to-do list! Taking a two-hour next to your baby is one of the most amazing things in the world.

Such Idiots I Swear!

I was driving off after dropping off Miadora when I hear and see this ambulance trying to speed up behind me. He passes me and I'm seeing that the cars in front of him are just not slowing down! One car even tried to go in front of ambulance, speeding up in the process. It's times like that I wished I had gamma vision rays or large spikes that came out of my front bumpers.

First Night Without DC...

It's a Wednesday morning. Normally, I'd still be in the DC cloud, foggy and liking it. But last night, no David Cook concert in my living room! And you know what? I'm feeling fine! This must be the first step of withdrawal.

Yet, why am I here, reading blogs about DC? And youtubing him, and reading his lyrics (from his PreIdol songs, not that Time of My Life joke).

Birthday Dude

Today's my hubby's birthday and I can't believe it, I don't have a gift yet! Well, I ordered him something online but it didn't get here yet. In previous years, I've always thought of something creative, whether it's a trip somewhere, or a surprise dinner, or whatever. But this year, I'm out of ideas. I think Miadora and I will bake a cake for him and surprise him with that.

Got a call from a florist today asking for directions to the house so he can deliver flowers to him. I'm like, I didn't order flowers! No doubt it's from some of the people he's dealing with, but whatever.

Today is a fairly slow day. I have one week off from work, which is good. I can actually do some errands and get organized again. I still have a suitcase downstairs from my trip to California and I need to set aside some of the children's older clothes to make room for the new ones.

Nothing too exciting today. Our housekeeper asked me yesterday if I can help find a job for her neighbor. And seeing how there are several people looking for housekeepers right now, I told her I'd try. Today her neighbor came over and gave me her contact information and a photocopy of her ID. I know how hard it is to find and keep work here in Honduras so I'm going to do what I can to help. I'd like to think I'm a very nice person. I offered that she sit down and have something to drink but it seemed like she felt a little uncomfortable, like she didn't belong there, but I tried my best to make her feel at home. I know that she probably walked a great distance to go to my house so I'm not just going to brush her off.

As I'm writing this, the door is ringing. I bet it's the flowers that I DIDN'T order.

DC on Larry King Live, Monday

I watched Larry King Live again last night but damn you Larry, you didn't read my question! My question was:

"Hi David Cook. Congratulations! It couldn't have happened to a more deserving guy. Two part question - I, like the rest of your fans, am worried that your next album will not represent the same uniqueness that won the show. Will you have full creative control or are your hands pretty much tied? Second question - will Analog Heart be re-released?"

I thought my question was pretty good but I guess questions about who he's dating takes precedence.

Time of MY Life and Those Damn Rainbows

I surrendered to the awesomeness that is David Cook and I downloaded Time of my Life on iTunes, even though I was totally against it. I have to say... I'm not crazy about it. I don't know if I actually like it, but my body is fighting it because I've been against all AI coronation songs since its conception or I actually hate it cause I hate it. Well, maybe I don't hate it, but come on...rainbows? Magic rainbows? Where are the pink hearts, green clovers and orange stars? And I'm not sure about the way he sang it. It just didn't have the same DC edge to it. Now I wouldn't mind if he was in the studio and he sang it like that because HE wanted to sing it like that, but what if executives and producers were telling him to sing that way? That I would have a problem with. David sweetie, don't be owned by the machine! You're better than that!

DC: Life Has a Weird Way of Working Itself Out

Was talking on the phone with my mom again today. Of course after getting off the phone, I'm totally sad and depressed, like I always am after getting off the phone with her. So then I read an article on usatoday.com in which DC says, "Life has a funny way of working itself out," and as corny as this sounds, I actually felt a little better about everything. Hopefully everything will work out and my mom will be ok. One day.

DC's MySpace is Back Up!

I knew it. As soon as American Idol was over, he'd have his MySpace back up. It's pretty hot, yes. Yet, I can't help but to feel blah about the whole situation. I know it's not him updating his site anymore. It seems so impersonal. But still... there are pictures!

DC was on Larry King Live

The door was installed a few days ago and still there's dust everywhere! It's pretty much clean on the surface, like the floors and the furniture, but the dust still lingers in the air. Now another guy is here trying to plaster up the holes on the wall and the sides of the door. Just when things got a little bit cleaner, now this.

So David Cook (and the others) were on Larry King last night and true to form, I miss the first 15 minutes because I had no clue what time it was going to come on here in Honduras. I had never really seen him on TV speak that much before, so it was a true pleasure. He's amazing and I wish him all the success in the world, but the same time, I hope this experience won't change him. I hope his next album will be full of songs that he writes and arranges, not like Time of My Life...which I am extremely torn about. Should I download it or not? I want to because it's DC, but I don't want to because someone else wrote it and the words are so cheesy and reminiscent of all the past crappy coronation Idol songs. Please DC don't make an album full of crap like that. Do one like Analog Heart! That would so rock! I have the iTunes open now...should I download it or not????

Ok I buckled, I just bought Time of My Life. But I also bought The World I Know, so it balances out.

And why does everyone hate the Dream Big song? I actually like it a lot, much better than Time of My Life.

EEG Results OK

On the surface, that's good news, but if it's your mom who has been sick for the past 3 1/2 months, with no accurate diagnosis in sight, then it's not so good. I thought for sure it was a nerve issue because is complaining of cold legs, but I'm not sure an EEG will show any nerve damage. We're starting to run out of hope here. I don't know what else to do or how to feel.

Unusual Day Today

My game is on today. I was able to take a shower, get Miadora dressed, fed and ready for school, feed the baby, get myself ready to work, and get her to school in time and get myself to work at a fairly reasonable hour. Go me!

David Cook on Larry King Live Tonight!

David Cook, along with the nine other idols, will be on Larry King Live on CNN tonight at 9pm est. This is the first part of a two part series. The next part will show the following Monday.

Now I have to glue the channel on CNN to find out exactly what time it comes on. The TV schedule here is a little screwy. For the basic channels like ABC, NBC, CBS and FOX, we go by a Denver affiliate in the States, but sometimes it's not always Denver time because Honduras doesn't participate in the Daylight Savings Time (there was a rumor that some "important" politician was late for a meeting because of DST and subsequently banned it...yes it's a rumor but knowing how the rich rule this country, it won't surprise me if it's true). So I have no idea what time 9pm est is here.

I Forgot...

I totally forgot we're having dinner with some VIP tonight. I'm here working, and I haven't been able to spend that much time with the babies, and I have to go straight to dinner. Sometimes it gets really old. I'd much rather spend a nice quiet evening at home with the family. The guy only speaks Spanish so I'll probably do a lot of nodding, smiling, nodding, smiling, looking at my food, nodding at my food, smiling at food...thinking of DC. Ahh what a hottie. Where the hell did that come from? I told you David, get out of my head!

Seriously, anyone who knows me knows I don't have too respect for the well-to-do here. It's hard knowing that you have to be polite to them, yet you know that they aren't doing enough to help their fellow Hondurans. When I go back to the States, I want to work in the non-profit field and not work in the same field I'm working here.

My Lunch Break...

I spoke with my mom for the first time in two days, and I know thatshe's just not going to get better overnight, but for God's sake, Ijust hope and pray that maybe she's a tad bit better by the time Icall her. It's never been the case. Today she was just a wreck and Ican't believe that it's really my mother who I am talking to. She'snot there anymore... I wish I knew what is going on. I wish the damndoctors would do more to try to find out what is wrong. She's hurting. I'm hurting. Then when I get off the phone with her, I see myfamily and how happy my children are. They don't have a clue. Howcan I be happy when Timmy walks around so carefree, trying to show methings, then I think about my mom...how incredibly sick and depressedshe is. I just have too much empathy, too much to a fault. I want to be sick for my mom. I want to take that pain away. No one personshould go through that.

At Work Again....

I can't believe it's all over. I'm sooooo going to miss him. Check this out, last night I was even looking at information on the American Idol tour! They will be in San Jose in early July but don't plan on coming to California until late July or early August or so. So I looked up Houston. I can hop on a plane to Houston from Teguc and watch the show. Then I thought...what am I doing? I only want to see one guy, is that really worth it? Then I remembered that the one guy was David Cook, so maybe I'll think about it.

The last couple of days, I've kinda been going to work...catching up on emails and just bsing, but today is when I really have to work. And here I am still writing about DC. GET OUT OF MY HEAD!

Sometimes I hate being back at work. Everyone is asking me, "how is your mom?" and I really have no response. And I really don't want to talk about it sometimes.

Hmm, someone just asked me to write up something about an Emotional Intelligence Seminar. Wth is that? Maybe I need to take that class.

He IS King!

He just won American Idol. 'nuff said.

After the Commercial Break...

they'll say who wins. I'm actually quite nervous. Holy crap I am nervous.

Just saw the George Michael medley with the 12 contestants. 12? I only saw 1. And he sang straight into the camera, "I will be the one who loves yooooou, tiiiiill the end of tiiiiiiime." Wow, too much excitement for one night! I can't take this!

I Guess I'm Going To Write About the Finale

I wasn't going to blog about the finale tonight...just too tired, but hell after seeing David Cook dancing around without any pants, screw it.

They just showed that dude with the white pimp suit singing his I Am Your Brother song. Makes me darn proud to be a Filipino let me tell you.

Oh David, you did an amazing job with ZZ Top. That's your realm baby. Work with it.

Wow, get me a cigarette

Ok I wasn't going to blog tonight but I just saw David Cook without any pants! Omg that was freaking hot.

Dusty House

I couldn't take being covered in 5 inches of dust and plaster from the door installation, so I took both kiddies with me to work. At least I'm able to take the kids to work occasionally. Now, whether or not I am able to work or not with a 4 year old and a 1 year old running around me, that's another issue. Anyway, the dust was bad for them so I took them here.

I really don't really care to watch tonight's results show. Whatever happens, DC totally won already and his presence in the music world is just going to be awesome! I can't wait! Give them hell David!

Back to Boring Real Life

The door guy finally showed up 25 hours later! The house is a mess...plaster everywhere and we literally have a hole in the wall now. Hubby thought it was too loud for the baby so I packed him up and took him to work. So what am I doing at work? Blogging! Ha, take that corporate America! Wait, I don't work for a corporation. Still, whatever.


Hi there, I'm a metal, bullet resistant door looking for a home.

Here's my hole in the wall. Literally.

The Morning After

I've been thinking a lot about this, maybe too much. I feel proud for David Cook. I think it was his last chance to show who he was, and not back down when it came to song choices. He didn't play it safe, no - he played by his rules, and because of that, he has my utmost respect. Thank you for showing us your inner soul for the past four months. It has been fun.

I wore a Woodstock shirt (notice the guitar shape) to celebrate David's performances last night! Gooooo David!

Just Found Out That..

the newly crowned David will sing a song called, Time of My Life, tomorrow evening. Sounds incredibly cheesy. I don't know if I can stomach David Cook singing that. Then again he can sing me the Miranda Rights and I'd melt.

I Just Don't Know

I don't know. Tonight felt weird. Yes, DA was consistent and gave exactly what American Idol's producers were looking for - a cookie cutter image of the perfect American Idol. Then there's my boy, David Cook. Cook was the opposite. He's geniune, he's real, he's a real rock performer, he sings, he plays guitar, he writes songs, he changes things up...he wants to do things HIS way. Then is he right for American Idol? Personally I've felt that it was better for him not to win American Idol in order for him to retain who he is. Tonight's performances showed he is. A real performer who won't let a stupid TV show get in the way of his real self. He took chances tonight and for that, I have to thank him.

The first song he couldn't really do much about. And for the second song, he took what could have been your stereotypical touchy feely mooshy ballad and rocked it out, DC style. The third song he took a leap and sang a song he hadn't before. It was a beautiful performance that left his heart and emotions out there for us to experience.

There's that part, then there's the part of me who thinks he should win. I wish I could ask David what he really wants to do. I know in my heart that win or lose, he will be the most succesful AI graduate ever. I can't wait to see what's next for David Cook.

American Idol - Round 3

David C. just sang The World I Know. The end was absolutely breathtaking. He cries at the end. Oh David honey please don't cry. I'm here, I'm here. Man, seeing him bare all his emotions, I can't tell you. Simon didn't like it and he doesn't think he'll win because he didn't play by the rules. David is right. He chose a different song because he thought he needed to progress. He didn't want to sing a song he already sung. Go ahead David! Get em boy! He's right and that's the David I know! That's the rock dude persona, not the guy that AI makes do the cheesy dance numbers, or wear the stupid boxing gear. If he gets second place for being himself, then fuck it, that's better than selling out your heart and soul. Way to go David Cook! The rest can suck it.

American Idol - Round Two

Seriously, enough with the boxing analogy.

DA hasn't sung yet and I don't give a crap. Cook did an AMAZING job at the original song. He whipped out his....guitar and jammed it. He looked like a rock star. A real rock star. Totally amazing and I could totally hear that song on the radio and in...wait for it...my heart! I've always respected what Simon has said but he was 100% wrong about DC singing this song. He said it was an ok performance. What the hell is he talking about? Hasn't he heard the other crap songs that has come of out of the AI original song vault? I mean...A Moment Like This? This Is My Now? Wtf? David rocked it out and I loved every second of it. Randy was right. David was singing his face off.

Archuleta just sang. Zzzzzzzz... Oh sorry. I'm not trying to be mean, but it's your typical crap original song. ...in this moment...no one can take it away from me...yeah yeah yeah. That's what I hate about American Idol. Those stupid original songs at the finale. DC actually changed it up and did some ridiciously awesome with his song. Come on America!

American Idol - Round One

Ugh we start with the boxing thing again. I'm worried kind of. David Cook looks different, like he's been changed... I don't know. He just doesn't have that same matter-of-fact personality I normally see. But tonight is different. Tonight matters. 7,000 people live are watching and millions are watching in their living rooms. He actually looks like he WANTS to win.

DC sang I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For and DA sang Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me. So unfair. The U2 is completely monotone...how can he change it up a bit I thought. Still, DC does a wonderful job, especially toward the end. I wish he had his guitar though, cause that's damn hot. DA's song was originally sung by Elton John and George Michael. The song has so many highs and lows and had more range. DA did a good job with that of course. Wait to choose a crappy song for DC to sing Clive Davis.

American Idol Play by Play

Okies, we're 10 minuntes into American Idol and neither one of them have sang yet. I watched the whole cheesy boxing thing, but David Cook can be in a potato sack and I'd watch him. I think it was very sweet what he said about Archuleta. Such a gentleman!

Ok, ok, ok, it's on now.....DC is starting first!

Dear David...

I'm 30 freaking years old, why do I act like I'm 16 when I see you onstage?????

American Idol Tonight!

Shamefully, I've just spent the last two hours of my precious time (?) reading up on American Idol's finale tonight. What else am I supposed to do when I'm off work and waiting for the very LATE repairman to come and install a door in my house? Hondurans are pretty funny sometimes with their always late attitude. Everyone always makes fun of "filipino time" but I had never heard of Honduran time until I got here. 8am the guy says. 10:17am the time on my computer tells me and he's still not here! I've got more important things to do here than wait for him! Oh well, more articles to read I guess.

So why the new door? Well, our old one sucks. Our bedroom is supposed to be our designated saferoom, yet our door is the weakest in the whole house. So when we found out that the door would be paid for, we jumped at the chance to get a metal door! That's right, a metal door! You'd need a H2 to break this baby down! I'll be just like Jodie Foster in Panic Room...although I've never seen the movie.

Here I wait. I'm excited and worried about tonight's American Idol. It'll be my word nerd's last performance! Awwwww.... Wonder if I can just hire him every Tuesday night to sing for me or something? Maybe not.

It seems like I'm in a chipper mood right now, but I'm still thinking of my mom. She is currently getting an EEG done and I'm worried for her. Most likely, like the other dozens of tests she's had done, it will come out fine...which means back to square one. It's strange that you WANT something to be wrong each time she takes a test. It's the only way to get closure and find out what her illness is. But at the same time, I'm scared as hell. What if the results do point toward something...and it's something serious? Will I have the mental strength to deal with that? Will my mom? All we can do is hope for the best, and unfortunately expect the worse.

David Cook - i can't really think of a title that doesn't sound corny or fanatical...

Ok, yeah I feel silly writing this, but I have to express my excitement for tomorrow's American Idol finale. Yes, I want DC to win because I think he 100% deserves his time to shine. Then again, I don't want him to win. He didn't seem too happy about getting in the Top 2 last week. I don't want him to be "Hollywoodize" because he'll lose his charm...and man he's got plenty of that. So if you're reading this David (and yeah, like that's really going to happen), don't forget to be yourself throughout this whole process. Yes, it'll be difficult, but remember who you are and where you came from!

And also, I don't want to sing a crap song like all the Top 2 finalists sing. He'll lose so much of his edge because they will probably tell him exactly how to sing and arrange it. That's too bad. He doesn't need help singing a song, trust me. I've listened to the songs from his solo album and he just plain and simply rocks out, even the ballads. I'd say The Finish Line is my favorite. Too bad amazon.com took down his downloads.

So anyway, yes I'm excited, then again, it's kind of bittersweet because I'm going to miss the Tuesday night David Cook concerts in my living room! RARR!

First Day at Work

Ok, it's my first day back at work and I supposed it's pretty uneventful - which is always good. It just feels weird. Before I really didn't want to do any duties that were outside my job description - that's the kind of dedicated worker I really am!!! - but today I was like, I can do this, let me do this, I can work on that, bla bla bla. There I go again, trying to divert my attention elsewhere. I think I need to think of other things right now. As hard as it is, it's hard for me to think of other things other than my mom...especially this week. She is getting an EEG done this Tuesday, and plus, this will be the first week that she has to spend time alone by herself, well until my stepdad gets home anyway. My sister arrives on Friday. I hope she is able to handle this at her age. This is a hard thing to undertake, but I don't want to tell that to my mom, even though she already knows.

Back in Honduras

I'm back in Honduras and I honestly don't know what to think or feel. Yes, I'm happy to have my family together again, but I'm still sad. It's as if something is missing in my life...and there is. My mom. I can't even begin to say how much I love her. She's the reason I went to California with the kids and spent one and half months there. Normally I love being back in California, but that trip was different. I watched, in one and a half months, how a person goes from vibrant/laughing/joking/silly/wonderful/MY EVERYTHING to a distant/depressed/sad person who seems to have lost her soul.

I feel like I have failed my mom. For more than three months now, she has been sick and to this day we still don't know what is wrong with her. What is it????!!!!! It's one of those feelings of worthlessness that makes me want to become a doctor so I can help her. It seems like the medical community has not done everything they could do for her. I thought that during my 1 1/2 stay in California, they would figure out what is wrong with her. But noooo, here I am, back in Honduras and still. Nothing.

I just got off the phone with her. And while I think she was a little more talkative, which is always good, she wasn't the same, and she hasn't been in 3 months. Some of the things she was saying weren't coherent. This is the most difficult thing for me to accept because she has been more than my mom, she has been my best friend.

Saying Goodbye

I had to do the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. I had to say goodbye to my mom Wednesday. It was really, really bad. Worse than I had imagine. She cried and cried, but it was the worst kind of cry I had ever seen and heard.

My mom has been my best friend for years. This is something that I thought would never happen. Well, I kind of feared that she would one day get sick, but this is different. I can't possibly live a normal life here while my mom suffers every single minute. I feel like I've let her down. I wanted to try my best to help out medically but I could only do so much. I have asked God to help find out what is wrong with her by next week and offer a treatment solution for her suffering. I asked him to do this by next week. I told God that I would spend the remainder of my time here in Honduras to helping whoever I can help. The last year I have strayed away from helping people because I started working, plus with Timmy being born. Maybe He wants me to help out more. Hmm, I just thought of something, maybe he wants me to be a better mother? I don't know. Whatever He wants, I will do, because I want to find out what is wrong with my mom and I want her to get back to normal as soon as possible.

Lighting a Candle

We went to the Carmel Mission to light a candle for my mom.

Carmel Mission

Miadora at the Carmel Mission.

Happy Birthday Timmy!

Today was Timmy's birthday. My dad was so excited, he bought thecake, the decorations, not one but two cards, the plates and utensils. I was wondering why he was so excited, then I remembered that he hasnot been around for any of my kids' birthdays so this is his first.

But I was very much saddened by the condition of my mom. I wishTimmy's birthday was under better circumstances. I really wanted tocry because I know my mom really wants to help but can't because ofher condition. Then later in the day, she rode with us to safeway andI noticed a bit of a change. Even though she wasn't feeling 100%, andI doubt she will ever be 100%, she was making jokes and being kinda her old self.